I understand part of your problem. Read your last paragraph. You just put yourself down, I have read you doing this numerous times. We have all done this on occation, but it’s a habit you need to fix.
How can someone who thinks he sucks be confident enough to portray himself as a good catch to another woman?
This is why the pick up guys succeed, not because they are the best talkers, or the best looking, but they believe in themselves.
I was guilty of what you are doing at one time. Then I moved to Kelowna, partly because my uncle would tell me stories about how cool it was. Then I met a good friend in the gym.
So this guy extruded confidence with socializing, could easily talk to woman. We go out to the bar first time, he takes off to hit on girls and leaves me standing there alone, so here I am chatting with the other loser guys like myself who are too afraid to do anything, the night sucked.
Next weekend he did the same thing, so I stood around with those dudes again, but as I got a buzz on, I was like, fuck, I can’t be like this. I have to do something, force myself. So I hit on the old woman, lol. Like ones 20 years older, they would actually talk to me, didn’t act negative towards me like the younger ones, some even helped me out by refining how I approached girls. Hit it was a start. I was now moving myself into a positive direction no matter how lame it seemed.
Next thing after a couple months (plus I was killing it in the gym and looked good) I had lost that fear, well at least I could control it enough to just walk over and talk. Even the way I held myself improved, girls started to come over and initiate conversation. It was a game changer, my self worth massively improved.
Anyhow you need to formulate a plan. No one is successful without one.
Here is a basic list I would follow, but you will need to apply it to you.
1. Get your body into damn good shape, huge is not what attracts most woman, get lean.
2. Make an effort when you are out anywhere to smile and say high to other people including woman, young or old. Even to cashiers.
This will help improve how you are portrayed. It will become a habit.
3. Every night before bed and in the shower in the morning, complement yourself. Think of what you did that day to improve your situation and give yourself a pat on the back. So if you smiled at a hot chick and she lit up and smiled back, think out that and how it was because of you.
Tell yourself you are a beautiful butterfly, lol. I’m not really kidding, I know you’ll laugh as you say it, but I’d bet after a week, you’ll notice how you feel improves.
With anything you need to like yourself, look at your positives.
Or I just guessed you all wrong and am an idiot,