Bi-Polar

4 years ago I was diagnosed with ADHD and more recently Bipolar disorder. The last 4 years have been a roller coaster. I wish I never went to the doctor for help nor took any meds. I feel like the medications have ruined me! They kinda-sorta helped me with one problem but created 2 or 3 additional new problems. I have been battling some pretty bad anhedonia (inability to experience pleasure or joy from activities that one typically enjoys) for the last 6-8 months.

Recently, I have been trying to ween myself off all the meds I have been taking in the hopes of getting back to "normal". Its been about 8 weeks since I stopped taking an antipsychotic called Abilify. And also 4 weeks since stopped taking legal meth aka Vyvanse cold turkey (after taking a massive dose for the last 4 years). Needless to say the last few weeks have sucked big time.

However, I'm really thankful my wife has been super supportive and has put up with my oscilating moods, depression, negative though loops and all the other bs associated with being in this situation. I couldn't have done it without her support. However at times I low-key wish she did give up on me so I could just fuckitall.
 
4 years ago I was diagnosed with ADHD and more recently Bipolar disorder. The last 4 years have been a roller coaster. I wish I never went to the doctor for help nor took any meds. I feel like the medications have ruined me! They kinda-sorta helped me with one problem but created 2 or 3 additional new problems. I have been battling some pretty bad anhedonia (inability to experience pleasure or joy from activities that one typically enjoys) for the last 6-8 months.

Recently, I have been trying to ween myself off all the meds I have been taking in the hopes of getting back to "normal". Its been about 8 weeks since I stopped taking an antipsychotic called Abilify. And also 4 weeks since stopped taking legal meth aka Vyvanse cold turkey (after taking a massive dose for the last 4 years). Needless to say the last few weeks have sucked big time.

However, I'm really thankful my wife has been super supportive and has put up with my oscilating moods, depression, negative though loops and all the other bs associated with being in this situation. I couldn't have done it without her support. However at times I low-key wish she did give up on me so I could just fuckitall.

Can I ask what made you think you had bipolar disorder? Or what made you get tested?
 
I’ve been through something similar, and what helped me was setting small boundaries, talking openly on calm days, and getting my own support so I didn’t burn out trying to handle everything alone.
 
Can I ask what made you think you had bipolar disorder? Or what made you get tested?
Manic is a great indication something is up. Massive swings and fast. Can be ready go death one minute and laughing 30 seconds later. I’ll leave it at just one symptom as it is a very common one. Sorry for such a late reply, just saw this thread now.
 
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