I think you have good guesses but no one here will be able to tell you anything definitive without looking at your blood work, reading your medical file, and even then the file is only as good as what you tell the doctor.
I believe you said, "I been on T and ritlen for almost 2 years now at varying dosages. And It making me feel mentally unwell, its ugl ( not from my normal source )"
Why would you take something that makes you feel mentally unwell for 2 years? See a doctor and get a professional to take care of ADHD. You are playing around with some drugs that can have serious side effects and do not always work for ADHD. Add in the stress on the body of PED's, especially orals and the combo may be the issue.
There are a lot of other options for ADHD, but I am not educated enough in that field to make recommendations.
I do not understand why people take steroids / PED's that make them feel awful. If you tried it twice and it made you very unwell, why do it a third time? Remember you can't make progress forever unless you want to get injured.
People need breaks, deloads, time off, all with the goal of progressive overload and long term gains you can keep - not weekly improvements albeit no one can blame you for wanting that. Ask anyone who competes in strongmen or power lifting about their progressive overload and growth for competitions and how they slowly work to their goal.
Your body speaks to you in different ways and gives you warning signs and without the care of a professional, this is not the place to get medical advice when you are self medicating and also taking PED's. I mean nothing by that,
@biguglynewf said it well - if something makes you feel terrible, you may be one of who can't use Oxandrolone period (I can't). No drug is worth feeling awful or wrecking your relationship. Oxandrolone stresses my liver, no matter what I take to keep my glutathione up and oxidative stress down.
Lots of great possibilities mentioned above, but all including mine is just a guess.
Men are very lucky, compared to women in the options for PED's and we all react different to different drugs, just like the drugs doctors prescribe. Many can use Boldenone and love it, others get terrible anxiety and can't sleep. Deca has no impact on some sexually, others lose all sex drive and can't perform.
Just to be clear, it is test and Ritalin that makes you feel mentally unwell and then the Oxandrolone puts you over the edge. I am not sure of the contradictions with Ritalin other than what medical sites list.
Wish you the best luck getting this sorted out.
