JOURNAL: A Girl on Gear

So. 3 pins into dracorex's npp. No PIP! I've been pinning a I.U e3d. And everything's been good... hopefully take some knee and shoulder pain away, that's all I'm really using it for at this point.

I am back to work, full time again. I started today so, I will post updates as often as I can. They have me on breakfast shift. Fukkin 530 start. I been doing 20 mins cardio. Before work. Today was my first fasted session. Let's see if that brings any changes. Tomorrow will be my first full day of. Cardio, work, weights. And I've been having a rough time sleeping again too. Had to take sleeping pills. I hope they kick in soon.

Night boys!
 
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The past few days have been a little busy. It will slow down once labour day weekend passes.

Past few mornings I've been doing 20 mins of fasted cardio. Monday and Tuesday I bailed on post workout cardio. And, I bailed on todays cardio. I have a sinus infection and today is really bad and, I am tired. Havent fully adjusted.

I feel bad for not being able to hit a full half hour so, this up coming work week, I will do 20 mins fasted and TRY my hardest to hit 15 to 20 mins post workout.

I got my period for 2 days. Which was odd? I seem to be getting it every 2 weeks now. Effing retarded.

I have a fuck ton of errands to run today. I have to get my childs school enrollment finished so he can start next week. I'm nervous for him. I hope he likes it! I hope they dont give me a hard time with him being "american born" - I havent recieved any of my govt documents from the Canadian govt for him yet. They want me to prove hes a "landed immigrant" lmfao uh... what!?
 
Son got into school. Hopefully they dont give him the boot lol

Pinned my chest today. We'll see if I get any PIP.

I got asked by the executive chef if I wanted to work in a different department with him... so, I might be getting more fukkin hrs? I dont know

I had a little cheat today. A tad bit of tiramisu. I felt guilty after that. I'm actually surprised I havent been binging. I'm actully proud of myself. I'm gonna have 2 of the guys stay on me for not eating. The little bit of tasting I do, shouldn't affect me much... If I notice much in the mirror, or scale, I'll make adjustments.

Um.. I think that's it. NPP has been treating me well. Pinning e3d. Not breaking out bad. A little oily but, that's probably from work. Scales the same havent changed diet either.

Alright. Off to bed. 3am comes quick. Night!
 
Sleeping has been so fucked up lately.

Getting up at 230am most mornings. Today, 230 so, fuck it. Going to do cardio now I guess..

Chest pin, no PIP. Not bad for virgin muscle, eh? Thatll be my new go to spot. I wanna pin the left, but with me getting in my head about my heart, probably wont happen lol. Get too paranoid.

My right hand has been going numb the past few mornings. I'm guessing it's from work and the knot in my back affecting my shoulder? Now, its effecting my hand? Could be carpal tunnel? It's from cutting 20 watermelons every fucking day. Also there are 3 departments in the hotel. The executive chef is already asking me if I want hrs downstairs and, I was asked yesterday if I want extra hrs in my department. These guys are gonna kill me. They better bump my pay rate up.

Well Hope everyone is having a good long weekend! Wish me luck for today!
 
I always liked pinnng chest. I come in from the side where the chest is the thickest. In the area near your arm pit. No chance of hitting your heart that way...lol
 
German89 said:
Sleeping has been so fucked up lately.

Getting up at 230am most mornings. Today, 230 so, fuck it. Going to do cardio now I guess..

Chest pin, no PIP. Not bad for virgin muscle, eh? Thatll be my new go to spot. I wanna pin the left, but with me getting in my head about my heart, probably wont happen lol. Get too paranoid.

My right hand has been going numb the past few mornings. I'm guessing it's from work and the knot in my back affecting my shoulder? Now, its effecting my hand? Could be carpal tunnel? It's from cutting 20 watermelons every fucking day. Also there are 3 departments in the hotel. The executive chef is already asking me if I want hrs downstairs and, I was asked yesterday if I want extra hrs in my department. These guys are gonna kill me. They better bump my pay rate up.

Well Hope everyone is having a good long weekend! Wish me luck for today!
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Sorry off topic. But wanted to ask how can you tell if a watermelon is a good one? I love watermelon and find it hit or miss. Sometimes so good others just crappy
 
German89 said:
Sleeping has been so fucked up lately.

Getting up at 230am most mornings. Today, 230 so, fuck it. Going to do cardio now I guess..

Chest pin, no PIP. Not bad for virgin muscle, eh? Thatll be my new go to spot. I wanna pin the left, but with me getting in my head about my heart, probably wont happen lol. Get too paranoid.

My right hand has been going numb the past few mornings. I'm guessing it's from work and the knot in my back affecting my shoulder? Now, its effecting my hand? Could be carpal tunnel? It's from cutting 20 watermelons every fucking day. Also there are 3 departments in the hotel. The executive chef is already asking me if I want hrs downstairs and, I was asked yesterday if I want extra hrs in my department. These guys are gonna kill me. They better bump my pay rate up.

Well Hope everyone is having a good long weekend! Wish me luck for today!
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Do you have insomnia regularly? Just curious as I had it awful for years and still from time to time but I finally have it under control.
 
German89 said:
My right hand has been going numb the past few mornings. I'm guessing it's from work and the knot in my back affecting my shoulder? Now, its effecting my hand? Could be carpal tunnel? It's from cutting 20 watermelons every fucking day. Also there are 3 departments in the hotel. The executive chef is already asking me if I want hrs downstairs and, I was asked yesterday if I want extra hrs in my department. These guys are gonna kill me. They better bump my pay rate up.
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Just saw a nerve specialist in July because both of my hands have been going numb. My left had goes numb now if I'm holding something up in it in as little at 15 seconds. He did testing and diagnosed it as carpal tunnel. In his words, if it's carpal tunnel, only your thumb and first 2 fingers will be affected as well as tingling and weakness travelling up your arm. So, if your ring finger and pinkie are going numb then it is likely nerve damage caused by something else. Hope this helps.
 
Thanks @HCO .. I will pay more attention to which h fingers are numbing out

@Taureau lmfao, usually color, texture and, size. The big ones are trash, just water, no flavour.

@Goldenrod yes.. I'm adjusting and paranoid/anxious. I'm still getting a solid 6 hrs. I am gonna start cutting fluids off at like 6pm as well. I am off tomorrow so, I hope I can sleep in til 4? What did you do to help with your insomnia? I was using edibles, I gotta grab more. 1:1 ration of thc and cbd. My quality of sleep was good and my body felt good in the morning. Using a OTC sleeper now which, I hate using.
 
German89 said:
Thanks @HCO .. I will pay more attention to which h fingers are numbing out

@Taureau lmfao, usually color, texture and, size. The big ones are trash, just water, no flavour.

@Goldenrod yes.. I'm adjusting and paranoid/anxious. I'm still getting a solid 6 hrs. I am gonna start cutting fluids off at like 6pm as well. I am off tomorrow so, I hope I can sleep in til 4? What did you do to help with your insomnia? I was using edibles, I gotta grab more. 1:1 ration of thc and cbd. My quality of sleep was good and my body felt good in the morning. Using a OTC sleeper now which, I hate using.
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@Bagua - will call me a hippie lol but I take melatonin 10 mg slow release, Kava and Passion flower. If that doesn’t work, I have low dose remeron (7.5 mg). It is antidepressant wth serious sedating powers and is not habit forming. The dose of 7.5, even if used daily, is only 1/4 to 1/6 the dose used for depression. Trazadone works well too but I find remeron better. One hour after I take it I’m out and it has a long half life so it will keep you out for 6-8 hours.
If you are taking diphenhydramine which is the most common OTC sleeper, it will work for a bit but if you take it regularly, it stops working and you need more. I hate the stuff.
I haven’t been following your thread from the beginning, sorry, so if your insomnia is being caused by something you are taking, hopefully you will adjust. I probably should have read further back.
As odd as it may sound, a diffuser with lavender or an essential oil known for its sedating qualities helps too.
 
Checking in:

I see the doctor tomorrow. For sleeping pills and carpel tunnel.

I hit 150lbs Monday.

I had a huge binge day today at work. Yous don't even wanna know what I ate. I even broke out when I got home. Too much sugar. I feel like shit.

I'll do fasted cardio for a hr tomorrow morning and then... surgery on Friday. Wish me luck.

It's going to be really rough having to take time off everything. I will be dropping my carbs down again on Sunday or Monday, whenever my rice runs out.

I will stick to my diet. And I will ask the doctor when I can "walk".. and I'll probably do that for a.m. fasted cardio. I dont have it in me to sit around and do nothing. I might even ask to work for a few hrs in like 2 weeks? Just depends how surgery goes and how I feel at the end of 2 weeks.

I just gotta downsize a picture and I'll throw it up for yall. It's my ending point, I guess? Worked so fucking hard, just to put it to it on hold. How do you guys do this?
 
German89 said:
Checking in:

I see the doctor tomorrow. For sleeping pills and carpel tunnel.

I hit 150lbs Monday.

I had a huge binge day today at work. Yous don't even wanna know what I ate. I even broke out when I got home. Too much sugar. I feel like shit.

I'll do fasted cardio for a hr tomorrow morning and then... surgery on Friday. Wish me luck.

It's going to be really rough having to take time off everything. I will be dropping my carbs down again on Sunday or Monday, whenever my rice runs out.

I will stick to my diet. And I will ask the doctor when I can "walk".. and I'll probably do that for a.m. fasted cardio. I dont have it in me to sit around and do nothing. I might even ask to work for a few hrs in like 2 weeks? Just depends how surgery goes and how I feel at the end of 2 weeks.

I just gotta downsize a picture and I'll throw it up for yall. It's my ending point, I guess? Worked so fucking hard, just to put it to it on hold. How do you guys do this?
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If your getting sleeping pills, highly recommend mirtazapine(remeron) low dose. Not addictive and works well. Trazadone is a good one too. Good luck!
 
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