Maybe others can relate to this in some ways...
I just wish that she'd initiate or let me know when it's time for the "other" door.
I have to pay attention to her bathroom trends, comments, timing, fatigue levels, etc. and maybe give it an educated guess and make an attempt once or twice a month because that''s what it seems like she's comfortable with.
After paying attention and thinking it's time, I almost always rub there when back there for more "normal" business and even if she seems responsive and to be enjoying things I still can't tell until I give it a go and then get the brakes usually get put on which is then a huge turn off, especially since it's mostly for her and I do so many other things to please which is very annoying at the time which then makes me completely lose interest and I will often just stop altogether and not even bother finishing and this lasts for a few days after.
Often I tell myself I won't even bother trying anymore but then I remember the intense orgasms she has (super sensitive everywhere else, crying, etc.) and want to do that again.
It's really just guess work and 99% rejection but seems like the best ever for her when I do go there and then everything else afterward is dramatically improved and she goes crazy with everything.
OD
Whats this "other door" you speak of ..I've never been presented with the other door.