I'm on the CPAP forever I think, wearing it is like an order of magnitude improvment in my quality of life. I think it's uncomfortable but necessary the doctor told me something like my trachea is anatomically undersized so I'll probably always need it and probably always should have used it I wonder how many years I've lost from not wearing it....
Yeah I'm going down from pouches now to lozenges. Even the chevrons here have govt pouches now called club 6. It's an expensive thing lol.
Ive been off and on the lozenges for years lol. I find they have good nutropic effects.
I used to do that.
Your right all my old injuries feel horrible lately. Its funny you mentioned that about tendons I feel like i re tore my shoulder ac but I havent done anything to it lol.
We all know better, but it is one hell of an addiction.
I dig your wife's vibe for your birthday. That's an average evening for me if you replace cigs with a vape
and I usually only have pizza on Fridays. Not watching porn is pretty based though, I think we're addicted to it we generally go to bed watch porn on our phones for a bit and then sex, some times we raw dog the sex without porn but that's uncommon.
We used to do that too but I found it got carried away, id be looking for the perfect video for like an hour and never find one lol. I didnt want to start comparing my wife or loose any appreciation for her so I had to stop it. For guys porn is a powerful drug it can really get a hold of ya.I dig your wife's vibe for your birthday. That's an average evening for me if you replace cigs with a vape
I did that a few times but stopped. I think if you're married maybe it's different because you know one another so well. I wonder if testosterone lowers men's desire to be attracted to younger women. I mean when I'm on I am like, "I don't care if you're ten years older than me!" And when I talk to men who are only attracted to women too young for them otherwise it's just not worth it, I think testosterone might help them. It's kind of like only the extreme shocking porn is enough to get you going but maybe it's an OCD thing where you just need things perfect.
It think its like a pure dopamine reward feedback system like any other drug the more you hit it the more you need. Which could be a slippery slope. I think im already fucked up from watching porn. I enjoy regular vanilla things in the bed room but most of the time its got to be pretty hard-core and out of the norm. My wife loves it and apreciates it she's a bit of a freak but It makes sense why rich elite people turn into discusting lowlife pieces of shit. I bet anyone who watches porn consistently started out with just beautiful women getting fucked and by now its like pregnant midets fisting each other in an 80 person orgy lol. The best thing any of us could do would be to fast from any fast acting forms of dopamine and get a good brain reset.
I'm also Christian if it makes you feel bad than don't watch it but if you do stumble I would say maybe reflect on Romans. In Chapter 7 Paul speaks of his struggle with sin and how he feels like he does the things he doesn't want to do and the things he feels he should do he doesn't do them, he says the sin is beyond his control that the sin is living in him. He says who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
I know you didn't suggest otherwise but for others, I am pretty sure that dopamine doesn't actually make you feel good. It is a hormone that makes you want, even if the reward isn't very good at all.
Awesome perspective man thats pretty good.
Kinda like I used to hate to scoop the meat sludge out of the grease trap, now I actually I kinda enjoy it. Ok maybe I enjoy the way it grosses out other people, lol. But still enjoy it.
I'm honestly working on trying to learn to enjoy chores I used to hate. One being things like cleaning out a BBQ. It's hard to not procrastinate in your own head about it and I feel like every second you do, you actually reinforce the mountain you've made out of this pebble.